Digital Painting Practice- A Sunset

It’s been a while and I’m sorry about that. I was very busy for a while but now my free time is back, well,  for now.

Been working on this a few months back to go back with the sunrise one I did before.  I am very obsessed with the sunset. To me, is one of the most beautiful things God ever created. Just looking at it makes me happy, like I have to have my wedding, baby and 50th anniversary under the sunset, somehow. I love it and when it is gone I miss it so much.

Sunset

 

Well, I rediscovered  this while I was going through some unfinished work of mine (which is quite a bit).

Anyways, this was just a study for me and I was getting quite meticulous on it so I decided to let it go a bit and now here it is. The sunrise painting mentioned before can be seen here and the reference photo for this can be found here .

Not sure what I will do next, maybe something  with water but whatever it is you guys will see it.

Which are you? Sunrise or sunset?

Thanks for reading.

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Oh, Shading !

Hey,

Something new from me today. Been catching a good few livestreams from one of my favourite artist, Stanley ‘Artgerm’ Lau.  If you haven’t heard of him before you can check out some of his artwork on his deviantart . His gallery will tell you.

When it comes to his livestreams, other than watching him create, the chat with many other artists and the music just makes for a pretty cool time, I learn just watching him and reading the chat. Everyone and Artgerm share many tips and encouraging words to get you on your way.

I was watching one lately when he mentioned something about shadows  and light  after being asked a question by someone in the chat. I can’t remember it word for word but it was something like, ‘simply think of  shadows as the absence of light’. Pretty basic I know  but somehow this took the pressure off  of me a bit when it come to shading.

You see shading was never an easy thing for me to do.  Still isn’t, sigh.

I kinda always tried to skim pass it but if I wanted to get better I couldn’t keep doing that. So I’ve been  reading a few tutorials and practicing from photos.  I’ve improved but of course I can do better. You can always do better.

Anyway, after the stream, I was driven to practice some shading so I did.

There was this really pretty picture of one of my fave Youtuber, Carmen from My Natural Sistas, floating around my facebook so I  used that as my reference. Her picture was clear and easy for me to see the light and dark areas.

Here is a link of the photo, linkie , and here is what I did;

Carmen from My Natural Sistas

Carmen from My Natural Sistas

 

I’m pretty happy with how it turned out. I see things I could fix of course but I still really, really had fun doing this.

I will be doing more but right now I’m working on a children’s book which I’m really excited about that. When I can, will show some of the illustartions on here.

Last but not least , here are some words I feel the need to share here:

There is a place in life, a place where you want to sit and give up, give excuses to stop pursuing your goals and kick your instrument away and do something easier, like doing nothing. But I’m telling you that if you get up from this place, if you push pass that sinking feeling of failure, you’ll find your way. You’ll get a glimpse of what you can become and you’ll know you can be it. So don’t give up. Just don’t do that.

Thanks for reading.

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These Words…

girl in the air with balloons

From a song  I’ve been listening to some of the lyrics go like this,

“I can’t even find the words for the way I feel the way so I’ll paint a picture, I’ll paint a picture…”

Well, in this case I’m not painting a picture but I’m using words to help anyways.

I’m very animated, or so I’ve been told.  This brings to mind someone who is full of life and expresses oneself freely.

Yet…

Yet, saying what I want stops me straight in the tracks. Like I’ve placed a lock on my words.

Not for all things, I’m not a push-over, but there are things I can’t seem to say.

I think it is a bad habit I’ve developed; not finishing sentences or just dismissing them before they reach my mouth. It is now like my default setting on certain subjects.

Even when I pray I don’t know what to say, but God being who He is, knew that moments like this would come among His people and gave us the Holy Spirit to assist when it does.

Romans Chp 8 vs 26 “~In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.~”

Sometimes I wish people could just understand my silence. I’m grateful for the Holy Spirit for this.

Why don’t I say what I want to say when I want to say it (or not)?

I believe it is a fear. Fear of a person’s perception of me, fear of showing too much of myself, fear of saying something too honest , different or silly. Good ole fear.

This monster has been the reason for regrets, long forgotten goals and the list truly could go on.

But…

But God did not gave me or you this spirit of fear. He gave us love, He gave us power and He gave us a sound mind.

2 Timoty chp 1 vs 7 “~For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.~”

And why am I even fearful? Doesn’t He promise His presence throughout  the entire bible. A book fulled of His living and true promises.

Psalm 27 chap 1 vs 1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

With knowledge then why. I needed reminding. I think I allowed said fear to blur my vision and stopped thinking clearly.

Now that I know, the next step is forward, right? (actually  this post right now is a step forward for me )

I am not saying this will be the easiest thing for me (or anyone if you are going through something similar to this) to do. What I am saying is I’m making a move, a step to face the fear.

This week and last week I’ve been getting out a lot of stuff I suppose I needed to with help of course and making strides to set myself free of this curse (dramatic enough :D?).

I have been open not in the typical way (hey, I’m a work in progress) but open nonetheless and I feel good about it. Better than I thought considering.

So with all of this, I encourage anyone out there struggling with some sort of fear (even the fear of bugs cause that is a very legit fear) to pray to God about it, read and remember His promises in the Word, and make a step forward into the fear. Face it.

Esther had to go before the King but she prayed before this. I’m sure she was afraid after all she could have lost her life but she prayed first. We may or may not face such dire situations but all in all. Pray.

I hope you are able to fight your fear as I hope to fight mine.

I will keep painting pictures and writing until one day very soon I wouldn’t need to do that anymore in Jesus’ name.Amen.

P.s. if like me and talking about something or expressing yourself  is especially difficult or you avoid it, writing helps. You could write and after read it aloud or release it by tearing it up or throwing it away if you need too. Or paint a picture. That will help too.

[forgive typos, I just wrote freely because needed to get this off my chest]

Thanks for reading.

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